i am here. i am whole.

i am here.

i am whole.

i am healing, and no one has the power to take that from me. -- alex elle

these last couple of weeks have been a serious roller coaster ride full of oh shit, I'm on cloud nine and Jesus, take the goddamn wheel! i have yet to find a happy medium while dealing with my depression but i'm beginning to figure out what works for me - this, being in the moment and just sitting in front of my laptop and purging all the negative energy out helps. hopping onto instagram stories and just talking as if i'm having a conversation with myself, helps. its seeing a DM pop up and having someone respond positively with zero shade to the raw honesty i provide, helps. i find that i'm not afraid in the least to be open and honest about what i'm fighting - i am an anxious, overthinking, depressed individual but most days i am THRIVING and other days i may feel low but i'm fighting against myself to make it back on top. 

i stumbled across poet/writer/gifted individual Alex Elle on instagram roughly 6 months ago and she always managed to post affirmations right when you need them - having a down day, *poof* alex elle uploads a photo on insta. she wrote, "i am here. i am whole. i am healing, and no one hast he power to take that from me". 

i am whole. 

i am here. 

yes, i battle my depression every. single. day and some days are harder than others but goddamn it if i don't try everyday to make myself better. i work hard to pick myself up by the boot straps and keep fighting because fighting is what i'm good at - i refuse to let this mental illness defeat me.