I’m teaching myself how to be a person, and how to love entirely and to let go fearlessly.
I’m entirely choosing myself today. I need to teach myself how to be alone. I need to teach myself how to let my heart breathe, and how to give my mind a break. I need to know that I’m all I need to save myself.
Over the last few months I have been endlessly working on myself and finally started really looking at who I want to be in the next couple of years. In all honesty, my end game in this lifetime is happiness. I want to be so deliriously happy no one can take that from me.
I want to love myself so unconditionally it doesn't matter what I have and don't have in this life.
I want to stop believing I deserve to be loved but only with conditions.
I realized that my thought process was fucked when I believe that once I crossed those imaginary lines that are set for me I deserve to have someone withdraw their affection or give me the cold shoulder because I'm being punished. I know I'm not perfect and I know I have dropped the ball but that by no way means I deserve to be loved only under certain conditions. Whats the point? Why fall in love if someone is willing to show you that their love can be withdrawn at the drop of the hat because you aren't who they want you to be?
I choose myself today. I choose to love myself without limitations, without conditions. I am growing and learning and most of all I'm falling in love with myself again regardless of the errors I have made I know that I am worthy of love and I wont stop reminding people of that