THE RABBIT HOLE CALLED SOCIAL MEDIA.
I have an odd relationship with social media. I love it because I get to see people I haven't spoken to in what feels like years thriving and genuinely happy on all my social channels while also seeing family I'm separated from growing up before my eyes but with every positive there is a negative. I realized about a year ago how much time I spent on social media - Instagram specifically. I realized I was curating my life more than I was actually living it. I spent so much time shooting, editing and perfectly laying out my feed so it could look like I had my shit together that I forgot to actually have my shit together - seriously, how sad is that?!
I never realized how much our lives revolve around social media until I took a step back and started analyzing what I'm doing and where I want to go. I had to remember to use social media as a tool in my life and not a crutch. Comparing myself to bloggers and influencers I forgot what and who I stood for, I cared too much about not having designer items or not having a super on trend outfit. I wanted to blend in instead of stand out.
I want to experience my life where taking my phone out doesn't give me anxiety to create the perfect shot so that I can edit the shit out of it just to post onto Instagram and hope I crack 100 likes. It started becoming a little too routine. I was obsessing over what photo went where, what hashtags worked and didn't, why weren't people liking my photo and if it didn't crack 50 likes I was taking it down or archiving it until I could figure out where I went wrong.
I'm learning how to care less. Experience more and truly soak it all in.