2017 and bre.
Wow, 2017 was a year a for me - i have had some incredible highs and horrific lows but i have learned SO many lessons this year that i wouldn't change for the world. It was only right that I would use the creative outlet i built in 2017 to reflect on a year of change - keep on reading to see what 2017 has meant to me.
Depression & bre:
2017 was the year i got honest with myself and those around me, i launched my first mental health piece explaining how i had long suffered in silence while battling depression and the toll it took on me while also highlighting the invisible toll it takes on those who love you. i truly believe that raw honesty kept me alive and pushing forward. depression has become such a big part of my life because its the monster in my closet i kept hidden but longed to get out - its the sad story you don't want to tell but need to and boy, my honesty has truly paid off in spades. this is the most honest i've eve been. i created a mental health tab because i needed to show others who suffer in silence that they to have he strength to get better, to find healthy ways to cope. i hope i have helped people by speaking out about my depression because its helped me.
Travel & bre:
When I was in middle school I understood the difference between those who had money and those who didn't. I was part of the have nots but I'd never know it because i grew up in a household full of love and adventure - i created forts and sailed away to made up islands all from the comfort of my living room - i put on plays and sang songs for the audience of one. but i always told anyone who would listen that when i 'growed' up i'd see the real countries i sailed to on grandmas couch cushions and 2017 answered that little girls wanderlust prayers. i don't know how but we'll just say it was magic because i was blessed enough to see not 1 country but SIX. i created memories i'll cherish for a lifetime and stories i'll pass to my mini breana about how she should never stop dreaming because one day, she'll get there. there is a beauty about seeing the countries you believed you would never see and experiencing all of it with your partner in crime standing by my side. 2018 i already have some trips planned and i can't help but count my blessings because life could be so different and yet, im here. thriving.
Love & bre:
I went into 2017 feeling so low about myself, there was no love lost for breana and i felt that spiritually EVERY DAY. i promised myself i would start working on me, i wanted to be the best version of myself and if that meant my romantic relationships had to take a back seat so i could allow myself to hit rock bottom then let the chips fall where they may. i hit rock bottom and in those moment i realized how much i didn't value the woman i had become - i hated myself for all the fault i felt i couldn't fix/didn't deserve to fix. i had to relearn how to love myself in a healthy way, i had to put my depression first and fix that (seen above) and once i began "fixing" my depression i gained a beautiful perspective on myself.
today, i love myself a little more, a hug myself a little stronger and i don't beat myself up about the things i can't change because i'm a work in progress and thats beautiful enough for me. i will continue working on becoming the best version of myself because my first relationship is with me and once i build a strong foundation within myself all of my other relationships will begin to fall into place as well.
2018, im ready for you. Please be good to me.