2017 and bre.

Wow, 2017 was a year a for me - i have had some incredible highs and horrific lows but i have learned SO many lessons this year that i wouldn't change for the world. It was only right that I would use the creative outlet i built in 2017 to reflect on a year of change - keep on reading to see what 2017 has meant to me.

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Depression & bre:

 

2017 was the year i got honest with myself and those around me, i launched my first mental health piece explaining how i had long suffered in silence while battling depression and the toll it took on me while also highlighting the invisible toll it takes on those who love you. i truly believe that raw honesty kept me alive and pushing forward. depression has become such a big part of my life because its the monster in my closet i kept hidden but longed to get out - its the sad story you don't want to tell but need to and boy, my honesty has truly paid off in spades. this is the most honest i've eve been. i created a mental health tab because i needed to show others who suffer in silence that they to have he strength to get better, to find healthy ways to cope. i hope i have helped people by speaking out about my depression because its helped me. 


 

Travel & bre:

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Paris, France

Copenhagen, Denmark

When I was in middle school I understood the difference between those who had money and those who didn't. I was part of the have nots but I'd never know it because i grew up in a household full of love and adventure - i created forts and sailed away to made up islands all from the comfort of my living room - i put on plays and sang songs for the audience of one. but i always told anyone who would listen that when i 'growed' up i'd see the real countries i sailed to on grandmas couch cushions and 2017 answered that little girls wanderlust prayers. i don't know how but we'll just say it was magic because i was blessed enough to see not 1 country but SIX. i created memories i'll cherish for a lifetime and stories i'll pass to my mini breana about how she should never stop dreaming because one day, she'll get there. there is a beauty about seeing the countries you believed you would never see and experiencing all of it with your partner in crime standing by my side. 2018 i already have some trips planned and i can't help but count my blessings because life could be so different and yet, im here. thriving. 

 

Love & bre: 

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Promise yourself that you will choose to love yourself every single day, whether or not you sleep beside another human being. Contrary to popular belief, you become whole when you start to love every inch of your body, every aspect of your character, and every feature of your mind, not when you find home in someone else’s arms.

I went into 2017 feeling so low about myself, there was no love lost for breana and i felt that spiritually EVERY DAY. i promised myself i would start working on me, i wanted to be the best version of myself and if that meant my romantic relationships had to take a back seat so i could allow myself to hit rock bottom then let the chips fall where they may. i hit rock bottom and in those moment i realized how much i didn't value the woman i had become - i hated myself for all the fault i felt i couldn't fix/didn't deserve to fix. i had to relearn how to love myself in a healthy way, i had to put my depression first and fix that (seen above) and once i began "fixing" my depression i gained a beautiful perspective on myself.

today, i love myself a little more, a hug myself a little stronger and i don't beat myself up about the things i can't change because i'm a work in progress and thats beautiful enough for me. i will continue working on becoming the best version of myself because my first relationship is with me and once i build a strong foundation within myself all of my other relationships will begin to fall into place as well. 


2018, im ready for you. Please be good to me.

2018: 

1. Continue working on myself 

2. Grow in love 

3. Create something veryday - even if it sucks. 

4. Don't ever give up myself again.

5. Depression is real. Mental health is real - continue taking time for myself to heal.