lets get real about new years resolutions.
New Years Eve comes around once a year (duh!) and I've already pretty muched said fuck it to my resolutions. I sat alone on my couch NYE and started jotting down everything I wanted to accomplish in 2018 and my first one was, "blog 3x a week consistently" and welp, that didn't work out too well considering I skipped over my Wednesday blog day. But lets just break it down real quick - I enjoy writing blog posts because i enjoy the freedom of getting to sit at my computer and ramble/string words together on a topic of my choosing. i typically hate to just throw up pictures and call it a day because that seems impersonal but its harder to just pull a bunch of words out of my ass and make them make sense - that is where my real struggle lies. with that being said, i find that we are so hard on ourselves when it comes to our resolutions. we create these long lists of everyting we must accoplish before the year is up and if we dont cross everything off these lists it sits with us like a vice grip around the neck.
with that being said, i find that we are so hard on ourselves when it comes to our resolutions. we create these long lists of everything we must accomplish before the year is up and if we don't we beat ourselves up for not reaching our goals. for example, last year i wrote down 5x how i desperately needed to lose at least 20-25 pounds to feel great about myself, i only lost 15 - im still angry over the 10 extra pounds i wasn't able to get rid of. like what?! 15lbs is huge and honestly, i was shocked i was even able to lose that much but its that ingrained feeling of failure. failure to cross off the resolution i was so determined to put down.
so 2018, i have thrown out all of my resolutions and you no longer have a hold on me.
the only goal i have is to be better than i was last year.