Yes, the title of my blog post is actually a foreign film about a lesbian love affair gone wrong and it's so good! I know a foreign film is good if I can keep up with the subtitles without wanting to murder someone/falling asleep. But the real reason I stole the film name for this post is because yes, I am wearing blue and it goes perfectly with my hair right now but it perfectly reflects my mood. While I am battling my depression and taking it one day at a time (see post here) it's been decent - some days are better than others but this past weekend I was able to sit down with my family and really explain to them what was happening and how I planned to attack this head on and it was the most honest and refreshing conversation I've had in a long time. I stopped lying and laid everything bare and while there wasn't a dry eye in the room I have never felt lighter. It's been a very scary couple of months just talking and admitting I needed the help that being honest with my family was my last obstacle and I am so proud of myself for acknowledging that those people who love me deserve to know my struggle because when shit hits the fan I know I can call on one of them and they'll lift me up.
Here's to not letting depression win!