what is your purpose?

One of the greatest tragedies in life is to lose your own sense of self and accept the version of you that is expected by everyone else.
— K.L Toth

I fucked around started my blog roughly 2 years ago - before I figured out why I wanted to even blog. All I knew was I just wanted somewhere I could share my thoughts/ideas/outfits and weekly rambles about my mental health aka #mentalmonday. I was faithful with it for a couple months and then fell off and took a 6 month break to figure out what the hell I was doing. You would think that after 6 months I would've put 2 & 2 together and found that it made 4 but nah. I kept uploading sporadically with no rhyme or reason. Checked out other blogs and tried to emulate their successes and failed because it never came off as real and true to myself. I kept taking weekly breaks, and kept asking myself..

Why am I writing? Why do I care about these outfits? Who really cares what I write?

I stumbled across a fellow black blogger Lola over at The Blogger Etiquette and subscribed to her newsletter so I could get some printable resources to start mapping out exactly what I wanted/needed from my creative outlet aka my blog. I'm still feeling a little bit unsure some days and not because I haven't figured out what my purpose for this blog is but because I'm unsure whether or not people care enough to read it, digest it and then discuss it with me. I'm learning how to let go of those feelings and to not feel envious when other people succeed faster and further than I am - its not a race and there is more than enough space for all of us the succeed. By using Lola's printable guides and actually sitting down to begin mapping out my blogging future I feel like I'm finally at a place where I can discover and nurture my niche and slowly but surely succeed at it. 

I am going to be diving fully into writing about my struggle with depression and my battle with erasing the stigma that is surrounding anything mental health related. That is my niche, that will be my focus because I can only write well about a topic I am truly passionate about.

So yes, I will still blog about traveling the world with my husband and I'll definitely still post photos of my outfits because I love those but I will be moving full steam ahead into the topic of mental health because my mental health is what matters and by writing about it I'm slowly erasing the stigma that surrounds it. I hope you stick around for the ride!