"Breana, the sooner you realize this world owes you absolutely nothing is the day you can move on and accept whatever comes your way". Granted it was unsolicited advice my fragile ego was in no way prepared for but its something I've managed to carry with me into any and every situation I have been in. The one thing that bothers me the most is when people blame their circumstances for the life they have. the people who will rage against someone who has done nothing but attempt to shape up and make their lives better because its easier to blame everyone else instead of looking inside of themselves and realizing maybe its them who needs to leave the toxic energy behind.
Its easy to reflect on this topic because I used to be the toxic person who spewed hate like it was my first language - it felt easier to rant and rage against someone who was defenseless because I needed the lightness I felt after unloading on someone. It was the most unhealthy way to heal but I thought I was doing what was best. I wasn't. Its easy to sit back and reflect now because I've gotten better, I regularly see a therapist to work through the hurt and the trauma and find healthier coping mechanisms but it doesn't get any easier to watch someone do the same thing I used to. They're so busy projecting their hurt and anger onto someone, anyone who will listen because they can't stand to be alone with themselves. I guess I say all that to say this, check yourself, check if you're the toxic person and if you are, take that to the chin and figure out how to be better and then when you figure that out actively work on being better instead of bitter. Once you let that anger and bitterness go, the world opens up and shows you something so much better. Life gets better when you begin to move on.
Happy 4th y'all!