It was roughly a week or two ago that my relationship with time changed. I was walking out of the office and received a text that message that stopped me in my tracks - and while it doesn't matter what the message said it was how it affected my life after. I have always avoided doing certain tasks, whether it be something as mundane as, cleaning out my car to something as serious as reconnecting with a parent who has hurt me in some way. No matter how big or small the task is I will throw the word avoidance around and then assume no matter what I have all the time in the world so I'll get to it when I get to it.
That text message put things into perspective. It sucker punched me with a nice strong dose of reality - we don't always have time, we don't always have the time we've wasted because we're too afraid to say sorry or too afraid to bridge the gap and extend the olive branch. And while this message wasn't death related it could've been. I could've lost the only chance I had to repair some of the damage that had been years in the making.
I want to circle back to the above quote which is from one of my favorite movies, The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, good ol' Benjamin got to live life a little backwards and experience life in a different way and while I definitely wouldn't want that reality this quote has always stuck out to me. What if our time is now? What if we're realizing its never too late - wether you're 21 and freshly in the bars or 55 having a midlife crisis. What if we're not too late to recognize that this could be the best time of our life? We can pick up the phone and mend fences, we can travel the world and meet people, we can ask for forgiveness from those we've hurt. Its not too late, and while we don't always have the luxury of 'time' I'm realizing that my time is now, and I need to let go of avoidance and grab life by the balls and actually live it.
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